Its my party and i’ll get drunk and play with fire if i want to…
Hey!
SO… i turned 20 yesterday. ahhhhhh.
It was exciting… i had lunch with my parents and they got me an iPHONE! totally fun!
Then i had a birthday party where i got drunk and played with poi and danced and laughed with all the people who came and drunk more and got made by Jen to put a jacket on and drunk more and tried to avoid throwing up at the end of the night and just passed out pretty much…
It was an awesome night. I got brilliant presents and had fun and it rocked.
On another note… i am even more into Jen then ever. Everthing she does is wonderful and i love having her near and i don’t feel right when she isnt around. I introduced her to my sister which was a big move cos my sister doesnt take well to people but i think it went ok. But yes anyway my dearest Jen is the most beautiful girl ever. I’m going to state things about Jen that ROCK..
‘Jens Awesome Traits’
She has a cute laugh, She has awesome hair, She has really pretty eyes, She paints her nails all pretty, She always asks me cute things like ‘Can i get you some water? How are you feeling? Are you comfy?’ and last night when i was running around she said ‘Are you cold?’ and i said i wasnt then it was ‘Just put this jumper on.. just humour me…’ and it stayed on because it was a wrap around tie up one and she tied me in! Also she has a cute voice but says awesome things like ‘harden up’ that you just don’t expect, She always has great clothes, She always laughs when im too enthusiastic in kissing her as if im a puppy she tolerates happily, She always touches me and is constantly running her fingers along my arm or leg or back, She always looks so intent on listening to people and when she is focused on someone she doesnt see other people (like me) watching her, She is incredibly intelligent but can still have completely useless conversations with me about random things, She is REALLY good in bed, She says the words ’shitty’ and ‘bitches’ allllll the time, She gives me a ‘your seriously lame’ look all the time but i know she loves my stupid jokes, She always looks just as excited to see me no matter when, She is soft and warm, She always looks worried but then you say ‘you look worried’ and she laughs, She nags, She whinges, She bitches about stuff and stresses heaps but in a cute way, She makes AMAZING life changing dip, She loves cleaning, She finds me amusing, She always thinks of the little things i forget, She says ‘it pleases me greatly’ all the time, She calls my way of living ‘a whirlwind’ instead of ‘unorganised chaos’ that we both know it is, and basically everything about her rocks. She rocks.
My birthday was good. Life is pretty sweet right now. Sadly i am now 20 so bleurgh no longer young but oh well… oh and i got a comfy mattress cover thing so my bed is TWICE as comfy…
Bye Blog World
xx
‘I am Awesome’ reminder
Hi Blog Land,
Ok so i have to write a ‘rambling getting my thoughts out blog post’.
Last night i stayed up till 2am in bed listening to this most depressing song ever called ‘out of this world’ and read Jens entire blog. I mean i read from the very first post to the very last. My internet died at 2am and so when i woke up i read from where i had left off. All the while lying in my dark, quiet room with that same song on repeat.I have discovered two things from this…. 1. I was kinda overwhelmed by reading the nearly every day life of someone for three years, so much so that it just blew me away, and 2. Listening to a really depressing song on repeat in a dark room is the equivalant of watching puppies die, you just want to kill yourself.
So suddenly i was in this god awful melancholy mood, overwhelmed by her life and her emotional roller coaster regarding her Ex, Wifey, Tex and her plan to go to London, then her trip to Japan etc… and i just felt so inadequate and like the fact that i didn’t have a written weekly documentary of my life and experiences over the past three years made them so much less important…
But then… i got out of bed, i went and put my washing on, cleaned my kitchen, had a shower, and stood outside in the sun for a bit. And i realised something…
Not having my life written and archived doesnt make it unimportant. I have had an incredible life… And i sometimes get caught up in a down mood and let it take over my whole thought process but then i remember some things….
1. I am not old, life has not passed me by… I am turning 20 in a week but currently i am still 19.. i am in my third year of Uni and im going to graduate before im even 21… that is a huge deal…
2. I have already had an incredible life. Like seriously i have done so many amazing things, experienced some beautiful adventures and if i had died when i got hit by that bike then i would have died knowing full well that i have lived my life fully… i have truly lived.
3. I am incredibly lucky. I have my family who are really quite wonderful, my parents are supportive and there for me, my sisters and brother are great. I have a huge network of friends, close, random and fun… Everything about my life is really great.
4. I fully know i may be living the best years of my life right now but i have nothing but excitement when i look forward to the future, i am going to travel and have adventures and meet people and learn life lessons and one day i will be old and i will turn around to look back and smile at how much i have done. I know this because its part of who i am, i moved out at 17 after i finished school to go to a uni course that only accepts 20 people a year and usually only graduates 8. My parents said i would fail and come home poor and broken but i didnt. I made it. So i know i am going to have an intense and adventure filled life.
Because i seem to like doing lists im going to write another one.
Things about me that are awesome:
I have been sky diving, I have danced on stage, I taught a boys hip hop team, I did pole dancing, I have painted cool stuff, I have read so many books, I was a cheerleader for a while, I went through a hardcore gothic phase and have seen some really crazy things, I stopped smoking, I have a really cool house that is not nearly at all lizard or mouse proof, I have a really awesome bed, I have clothes for every genre ever and could match them into a costume for pretty much any party theme, I have the entire season of Buffy and the entire season of Charmed, I have 6 couches and a hammock in my awesome lounge room, I have a blue microwave, My house on the Sunshine Coast has a pool, a sauna, a speedboat, a pool table, a jukebox, and is on the river. I have learnt from all the mistakes i have made in relationships so that i am now doing my best to be the best partner i can, I love all of my possessions, but i do not need them at all, I have a good sense of humour, I have learnt when is the time to be mature, when is the time to be silly, and when is the time to give up and cry before trying harder. I have learnt to be open minded and to give everyone a chance before placing all my judgments on them, I am totally ok with the fact i dont like veggies. I have learnt to cook. I have hilarious taste in music and i am awesome at karaoke. I have learnt so many skills through long tiring work days in the theatre that i am very handy for nearly any situation, I am great in bed, I am a really good friend, I am brilliant with children and i love babies, I filmed my mum giving birth to my newest sister and it was one of the most incredible things i’ve ever seen, I have learnt not to stress about things because it all works out great anyway you look at it, and i am pretty good at guitar hero…
There is other stuff but i have reminded myself of enough now that i dont need to write it all.
So now i am going, i am off to clean and do things and then see Jen and kiss her because she is just so amazing. She rocks my socks.
Bye Bye x
History
Hey Blog World!
Ok so i’ve realised that apart from whinging about being a cripple and gushing over Jen i have been highly slack in the ‘About Me’ stuff. So i have decided to post all the stupid surveys and notes i have from old times so people can read all about me and i don’t actually have to rewrite it.
(By the way whilst going through these posts and stupid surveys i have realised i am such a loser, please ignore the stupid things i have said over the time… i swear i am actually mature AND intelligent..)
P.S if anyone actually reads through it all they get a gold star. Its a lot of info about nothing in general…
Here goes…
Posts from 2009:
Tuesday, March 17, 2009 at 2:08pm
1. i remember when i was about 11… a girl at the park asked me if she could have a piece of my bubblegum. She told me she would be my best friend forever if i gave it to her. So i gave her a piece and she ran off and i never saw her again.. The bubblegum girl will always be special to me.. i think on that day she left with more then just my bubblegum.. some other part of me went with her.
If anyone knows bubblegum girl.. please tell her that her best friend is waiting for her.
2. I have an obsession with the TV series Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I started watching it when i was about 7 or 8. The first episode came on telly and i was hooked. My mum wouldn’t let me once it started being on after 9.30pm and i missed a few seasons.. but then.. i got the entire series for Christmas a few years ago and my life has been complete since. i have seen every episode.
3. I am an incredibly quick reader.. i can read nearly any book in a matter of hours. I also have a problem with reading though.. once i start i pretty much refuse to put the book down.. my mind becomes completely one track and absorbed in it and i walk around with it… read whilst eating dinner.. refuse to sleep until its finished or if im so tired i fall asleep with it in my hand. I also seem to lose the ability to maintain conversation with others. This is why i was banned from reading as a child. My mum did not like the zombie me. I also got in trouble a lot at school because i refuse to put books down. i really love reading.
4. I am really bad at looking after myself. I do not have the typical urges to eat etc.. sometimes if i have time off and just stay in my house for a couple of days i completely forget about eating.. its not until i see a friend and then realise its been three days since my last meal. I get amused when my friends come over for a couple of days… they eat so often. I am also usually notoriously bad at feeding people… now my friends bring their own food because i wont remember to feed them.
5. I have song addictions. I find a song and absolutely play it to death. Then i find a new song.. and continue the cycle. I also love Cher. I love the old power ballads and karaoke is always a good opportunity for me to kill them with my terrible singing. I am quite a bad singer. I can dance and i can paint and i can be quite artistic in other ways… but i sure as hell cant sing. That being said… i love singing. I am going to torture the world with my enthusiastic vocals till i die.
6. I am really quite intelligent. I pay a lot of attention to my surroundings and i have spent a long amount of time watching people. I find human behavior fascinating and i take in a lot of information from the way a person moves and reacts. I try not to be the type of person who judges others when i first meet them and i also don’t know if i come across as being very smart. I am ok with that though. Because it is less pressure and i don’t have to have as many mundane conversations about philosophy and religion. I have also learnt a lot from my experiences and it only furthers my belief that i am awesome.
7. I am quite independent. I do not rely on another person nor do i have the urge to. I like my little house and my life. I like coming and going as i please and spending time with people i get along with and not having to notify anyone of my whereabouts. i spend an incredible amount of time at uni or work and i go home when i feel like and i can be annoyingly spontaneous. By that i mean that i can be sitting at uni and see a friend who then says ‘Lets go here and do this’ and then i go and then end up at peoples houses and random parties and adventures and come home three days later to my empty little house. I am usually consistently hectic and i may find time to spend with people randomly but i rarely go to the effort of making the time. I am not easy to catch nor do I aspire to be caught.
8. I am incredibly talented. Not only can i Hum Whistle… i can also make just one eye go cross eyed whilst the other stays looking straight.. it took an amazing amount of time but i finally mastered it. i can also wiggle my ears. Sadly i am not insanely flexible.. it has killed my dream of being an acrobat in the circus but i am content with my career choice anyway. I really love working in the theatre. It never fails to be surprising and a little bit magical.. even if i know exactly how it was done. My career is another reason i love my life.
9. Every experience is an adventure. Some last a long time, some are fleeting but beautiful. My life is completely my own. Where i go is an incredibly exciting path i am happy to embark on. The people i meet are also always interesting. I don’t have any regrets and i look forward with complete excitement. I have a lot of goals and ambitions and i know my life is going to be fantastic.
Ok so there is my 9 more. Hope its an interesting read. xx
lol always like… a chair… or my bed frame.. or some other random place.. then i have a shower later and forgot it wasnt in the bathroom and have to run starkers and soaked through the house.
What kind of mouse pad do you have?
this is such a stupid question… it makes me angry
Do you brush your hair with a comb or a brush?
i dont…like ever… i straighten it without brushing it to.
In your opinion, who do you think is the hottest celebrity?
me! lol
You have a project due tomorrow, do you use tape or glue?
i never remembered either so i would like… take a staple out of a old assignment and rebend it onto the new one lol.
Chicken or pork?
steak
By the time you get to school/work, is it still dark?
its that awesome light stage but not hot.
If you had a choice to be a unicorn or mermaid which would it be?
i AM a unicorn
What color is your underwear?
Black.. pretty much all of them… i always buy black.
What time does the sun usually set?
around 7ish
What/who do you think of last before you go to sleep?
blah
AC or fan?
Air Conditioning
Do you wear braces?
nope and never had…woot.
Can you do a hand stand?
only if you hold my legs! or yeh in the pool easy peasy.
If you were the opposite sex, how would you style your hair?
dread locks… heaps of them.
Jessica Simpson or Alba?
Alba
Which subject is worse, English or Maths?
i hate maths… i sucked at it… like really… i failed it… and the teacher hated me..
What’s one thing you really want this very moment?
a drink… and some cold air.
What movie are you embarrassed to admit you’ve watched?
i guess all that porn… lol.. jokes..
CD player or iPod?
Ipod man
Would you rather spin upside down going 30 miles or drop 400 ft.
i want to free fall forever
What’s your favourite shape?
quardaloprahexadron… shut up its real.
What do you have planned for the weekend?
im getting drunk.
Have you ever gone ice skating?
actually no…
If you were put in a room with nothing except for a pencil and paper, what would you do?
make a pirate hat out of the paper and draw a lifesize self portrait on the wall.
Is it always easy finding your remote every time you want to watch TV?
yep usually
How was your day?
boiling and busy
Do you grow your nails, bite or cut them?
bite… bad i know
Describe your handwriting:
always different each day.
Do you consider yourself a stalker?
hahaha no but im hell nosey
Do you bruise easily?
nope..hardly ever
There’s nothing on TV except Barney and Japanese news what do you do?
flick between them and have a baranese or a japney rave
Do you know more then 3 myspace codes?
ummm no?
You got a essay due, you either can type or write in pen, which will it be?
Type cos u got to eventually
Do you wear jeans to relax at home?
yeh but its too hot
Describe yourself using three words:
totally fucking awesome
Do you use deodorant?
i dont understand anyone who doesnt.
Do you like ice in your drink?
not unless there is alcohol in it cos its so annyoing to try and drink around but you dont think about it when drunk
Monday, February 9, 2009 at 8:15pm
Have you ever had a boy best friend?
Joel was totally… good kid that one lol
Have you ever asked a boy for advice?
yeh heaps…hehehe
Name something you dislike about the day you’re having?
work was awesome.. uni went really well.. the heat outside is disgusting… i am also really feeling for everyone in Victoria.. the death toll is up to 130…
What are you thinking of right now?
complicated emotional issues… the lack of strength in the fan… when i should attempt to sleep… the meaning of life… how good your mum was last night… you know.. the usual..
What do you want to be when you grow up?
still want to be a tree…an oak tree… sigh… i wish it could happen
Name something you did yesterday?
Went to uni, chatted, watched the show about the huge obese people and laughed and ate food whilst watching it..
Have you ever slept in the same bed as the same sex?
never… thats against god….
Do you miss anyone?
argh.
What book did you last read?
Midnights Daughter
Where was the last place you went besides your house?
i was at uni not long ago
Who last drove you under the age of 21?
drove me? like cattle? lol
Can you whistle?
I can… i can also HUM whistle… BETTER THEN YOU CAN.
Do you feel comfortable with answering personal questions?
quite… but it also depends on who is asking.. im only honest with my close friends
Did your night suck last night?
yes
How many months until your birthday?
about 2 and a half…start saving!!
Ever found more than a dollar in a random place?
i found 50 bucks on the floor once.. and i found a dollar in a couple of random places lol
Have you held hands with anybody in the past week?
ummm myself? just entwining my hands on my lap… lol… so alone…haha
If your doctor said you were pregnant, what would you do?
I’d say ‘ aw damn… the almighty went up my nighty again?’ that crazy lord and his rugged good looks.
Where does the last person who sent you a message live?
Ash lives in like…i dunno some place down the road
Describe your life for the past month in one word?
really interesting. oh shit thats two words! oh well… its not like u can fine me for doing a quiz wrong… can you? *runs away*
Could you ever be friends with someone that broke your heart?
i think it has been made obvious that either a huge amount of time has to be passed or maybe some hurts cant be made into being friends.
Are you shy?
ha in some ways but in general nuh.
Who did you last lay on a bed with?
ummm perry…my paramedic bear…. he loves me…
What’s your name spelt backwards?
eidoj..lol that took me way too long to figure out…like seriously about 3 minutes.
The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
um a rehearsal schedule.. im so lame… but now its a pdf instead of excel spreadsheet..oh shit i need to send it out..
Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?
yeh of course.. how do u know if its dead or not otherwise
How many cars have you owned?
i prefer owning people… god im obsessed with that application
Type of music you dislike most?
ummmm really bogan country music
Ever made a prank phone call?
to YOUR MUM yeh
Do you know all the words to the national anthem?
yeh most of them…but i prefer it to the tune of ‘working class man’
Favorite pizza toppings?
meatlovers!! wooooo
Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
yeh me and my buddies smoke the shells every day man… its what the cool kids do
Sunday, February 8, 2009 at 11:57am
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Jodie Foster – i think..
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Last week cos the crazed dentist yanked my tooth out then i had a full week of pain and occasionally shed a few tears.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
my handwriting still changes depending on what i feel like..sometimes i print really neat but sometimes i do running writing but then the s is hard and the little squiggly z gets me. in general though its pretty messy.
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
i like meat regardless of if its lunch time… i love steak and i love nandos… im replenishing my lunchbox full of nandos sauce packets cos the other stayed at Hayleys.
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
i like them.. but im currently content to spend time with Kelsey because i have too much to accomplish before i bring a munchkin into the world.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
if i was another person i would have a crush on me haha… its just cos im so awesome. lol.
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
yes and a few people cant tell if im being sarcastic or serious. and then sometimes…im both at once. wooo mind freak.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Tonsil Hockey lol. yeh i still got em. and my gall bladder and my appendix… in case u wondered…
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
i liked sky diving because you actually fell… bungee jumping looks fun but you bounce back up and then its just watching a human yoyo until they get you down… i want to sky dive again.
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
i dont eat breakfast but i love Crunchy Nut! or Fruit Loops… i get stressed at eating cereal tho… i try really hard to eat it before it gets soggy cos it feels funny… the worst is coco pops because the chocolate goes off and i feel a bit under pressure to eat them before they turn white an soggy…but then i learnt a trick… i stopped pouring milk all over it…
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
the main shoes i wear have zips.. they are my grandpa shoes that i get from kmart for 12bucks and then they break after about 4 months… but my only other shoes are… my bowling shoes that tess and i stole and i dont untie them, my converse which i have to untie and my black boots which u have to untie..but i dont wear them often.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
mint chocolate chip…or chocolate with ferrero rocher mixed in…mmmmm
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
their confidence level. its about how they walk and how they stand.. then eyes and teeth..
15. RED OR PINK?
Blue!
16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
physically – my weight
mentally – oh god dont get me started.
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
in Madagascar Alex and Morty zig zagged to get away from the spears and being shot… if i was trying to shoot them i would miss. but then i wouldnt try shoot them cos im not crazy and i dont think you should shoot them just cos.
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
i doubt they will… i shouldn’t even be dawdling and doing this but the one who tagged me definitely wanted me to.
19. WHAT COLOR TROUSERS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Im still in bed so im only wearing a shirt and underwear.. when i get up it will be jeans and grandpa shoes.
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
lol..Katie by Missy Higgins… it was a coincidence i swear
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Blue! and then if i broke it in two i could colour with two hands at once!
23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
rain when it first starts, bbq, hippie incense stores, that slight gun powder smell when u light a match, lollies and lolly shops, bonfires, things that bake..like brownies and cookies, chlorine, coffee, i dont eat onion but i like the smell of it cooking on the barby, indian food, lavender bushes, eucalyptus and the cold section of the supermarket.
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Kay-dee from that place she lives at.
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
nuh lol.
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
sport is so boring. i only watch the state of origin cos its only 3 games in a yr.
27. HAIR COLOR?
Mocha.. lol.. whateva.
28. EYE COLOR?
Blue
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
i used to have coloured ones and just trip people out.
30. FAVORITE FOOD?
steak and pepper gravy.
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
oh..god.. Happy Endings!! me and scary movies – not friends. i get so freaked and i have to leave the light on and make someone stay the night.
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Happy Feet.. for the like 10th time in 2 days. lol.
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
black – of course.
34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter.. its too hot the rest of the year.
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
both…give me an order of both…
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
hopefully Ash cos then she is still as lame as me.
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
most people.
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
its at work and its by Stephen King.
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
i dont have one… i wish i did… maybe i should get one.. but then i’d have to get a mouse..
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
ummm last night nothing..night before Womens Murder Club.
42. FAVORITE SOUND(S).
Music, rain, thunder and lightning, fire, guitar playing, audience applaud at the end of the show cos it means its over and we can go drink, Kelsey, people laughing, a room full of tap dancers, U.K accents, fast cars, the water when the boat is cutting through it, the ocean in general, wind, sing alongs – drunken or not. stadiums, 5.1 surround sound. the sound mud makes when you throw it.
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Dr Hook.
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
England when i was younger.
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
lol i have many.. i’m pretty awesome… but.. i am pretty good at the hum whistle.. ive taught it to a few recently but im still the best hum whistler i know.
46 WHERE WERE U BORN?
Gosford, NSW
47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
anyone who answers.
48. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
i just had a thought… why are all dentists married and do you reckon they ever marry a patient.. you think they would be lonely because they are evil but they are always so content…maybe they never had their spouse as a patient cos then they wouldnt like them at all.. i hate the dentist.
Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a note with 16 random things, shortcomings, facts, habits or goals about you.
At the end choose 16 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. You have to tag the person who tagged you so that they can be kept in the loop and see your answers.
Ok so i’ve been tagged a couple of times now to do this so here we go…
1. When i was a little kid my sister used to be pay me to do things for her by letting me kiss her on the cheek.. for example if i got her a drink i could kiss her cheek 3 times… i was a very affectionate kid.
2. I can get quite scared of the dark because i imagine really awful things to be waiting to grab me as soon as i turn the light off.. this is one reason i enjoy my chosen career so much.. we carry torches.. altho i have never been scared in a pitch black theatre.
3. i like to name inanimate objects and other things.. anything and everything gets a human name..
4. i got sent to a counselor when i was in primary school because the teacher thought i had learning difficulties and emotional issues.. i didnt.. i just didnt like that teacher an was usually reading a book under the table and ignoring her.
5. I crash things… i have crashed a car head on into a pole, a electric scooter straight into the wall of a building, and a ride on lawn mower into the only tree in 2 acres.
6. i still believe in fairies and mermaids and gremlins and all things magical… and honestly teddys do dance when u leave the room.
7. When i was little i read a book about tree spirits and sincerely wanted to become a tree spirit too.. so that i could dance with the wind and look after my tree… it would have been an oak tree…
8. i really have an issue with people breathing on me. don’t do it.. just don’t..
9. my house is a very weird little set up. i live underneath a real house in like.. the made over basement kinda area.. it does have windows and all but there is several quirks to it…
10. i have a hammock in my lounge room and i like sitting on it and watching telly.
11. I dance around… a lot.. to the point where everyone who knows me doesn’t notice it or say anything anymore if they are talking and i’m spinning around the room..
12. At most times i have an incredible amount of self confidence. But occasionally i really truly doubt my self.
13. i really don’t stress about stuff.. i think everything will work itself out and it will all be fine… this tends to annoy people who enjoy being stressed.
14. I have had a lot of incredible experiences in my life that i really enjoyed… but because of them all i believe my parents are truly cooler then yours and i appreciate them even more because they try really hard to give us everything we want and help us out.
15. i used to be a cheer leader for awhile at school… i also did pole dancing.
16. there is a fashion video of me somewhere that a girl and i made when we started high school when we were fashioning clothes. We did it for french class.. it had nothing to do with french i dont think.. but the video is still around. We modeled up and down her living room in different outfits to the song “Lady Marmalade”.
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Dont Hold Back.. (my thoughts and such)
Current mood:  confidentok so its been another year.. and i have said farewell to 2008 and im now hanging out with 2009 and we are getting along like a house on fire.
So.. im 20 in 4 months.. thats..interesting.. Im really looking forward to this year.. Im curious to see what happens.. because i didnt expect 2008 to be so jam packed but it was.. i got through my second yr of uni which was fantastic so no more classes now.. just shows.. and i was on a fair few shows which were - Judas – Audio Operator - Road – Set ASM ok what was next.. we had our 24hr LX and SND show which almost killed me.. that was insane. - Camino Real – Audio Operator ok then was.. - New Moves – DSM finally.. Production One – Technical Production Manager and then one more… - Melbourne Homeless World Cup 2008 – Pres Manager so thats my showroles… As for people i met.. it was amazing.. i feel like its been two years instead of one because of all the experiences ive had with people, and from meeting the new first yrs and getting to know them.. to people i met in my classes, to people i met out, to my online darlings… its been incredible.. some people i dont know what i would do without them and i feel like ive known them forever.. i’ve had some tough times and made some mistakes and fallen in love and made choices on that that have ended me here and even if i have no idea whats gonna happen now.. im gonna be fine because im surrounded by the best people and my life is awesome and i will meet new people and im sure there are people i will have to let go of… but its all just an adventure and i enjoy the unpredictable nature of it. And i even moved out and now live in a self contained little house under another house my mates live in..which is sooo cool. I dont regret anything.. it was all worth it and i’ve learnt so much.. grown more then i thought possible.. loved, lost then lived again.. im now content.. no matter what happens..this year is sure to be exciting aswell and i welcome it. Happy New Year. |
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Quiet Reflection
Category: Life So the past year has been one of the craziest and most interesting years of my life, i moved out of home, started university, changed jobs and had to work harder then ever before just to keep up. ive met some incredible people and had some amazing relationships and experiences. ive made some beautiful friends and precious memories and ive let go of some old friends and old comfort zones. i have learnt so much in the past year, not only in uni and in trying to live as an adult and pay rent but also about myself and my personality. ive tried so many different things and had such an incredible time. I realise that i am so happy and so content with myself and who i am and where im going. i have such amazing friends and the most incredible and loving family. My sister that i live with is the most accomodating person to have to put up with me and my parents are so wonderful for being so supportive of my random adventure into the world. i miss seeing my little sister and brother everyday, but they know i love them. Its a great feeling to look back on the past and look forward to the future and realise i am in such an incredible space right now and i am so happy with myself and who i have become and who i will be. Thankyou to everyone that has helped and loved and supported me and thankyou to every person ive ever met who has influenced me even in the slightest way. thats all i really had to say. |
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tess
“Written by tess:
you wish you had my friends.
really, my friends are the best people ever. we had an utterly marvelous night on friday. jodie and rose and i..work girlies and alcohol, how wondferul. WE ARE SO FREAKIN HOT! hahaha. we drank JD & breezers and i got a make over!!!
we went to the casino and had magaritas and these random guys kept saying random rubbish”dont drink and drive, drive and drink and you’ll stay alive”…what?!?! we left and did the epic treck to southbank greystone bar. which isnt really an epic treck, its just a long walk with the main objective being the same alcohol in a different location, it doesnt sober you up, its just makes you cold enough to realize ur not drunk enough yet.
greystone bar = absinth cocktails = my fav thing in the whole world!
 SCARY FAIRIES and i forgot to pay for them…it was funny…the chick looked like she would slap me down haha. so we drank and then it started raining and it was lovely. rose dissappeared to go call jez for what felt like about 4 hours so jodie and i cuddled up on the couch and took enormous amounts of photos…oh and jodie got the hiccups which is the most hilarious thing in the world.by the time rose got back we were all ready to leave, catch a cab back to banyo so in the rain we started to run towards a taxi and half way across i tripped and fell! IM MY NEW $150 SHOES! it was ghaslty. there was a car coming straight towards me, i was on the road, on my knees, the heel of my shoe had SOMEHOW got caught in my dress and i couldnt get up. a terrifyed, soakingwet, screaming little person scrabbling to reach the gutter in the middle of little stanley street, i thought i was going to die. and then JODIE! SHE SAVED MY LIFE!! she picked me up and carried me to the taxi!!! that girl is some kind of wonder woman of awesomeness. best line ever tho “i could have let you die and taken your shoes but i decided to save you”. beautiful beautiful girl! i dont think ive ever had my life saved by someone before, that was so cool! so we got in the taxi and the dude was liek “are you ok?” and im like “NO!!” and the blood! OH THE BLOOD! …there was actually very very little blood…hardly any at all. but i have this horrible ugly blister on my foot, its so deep i swear u can almost see the bone! awesome awesome night with 2 of the most awesome people in my life, love you both so much.
and that brings us to today, where there is not so much love happiness or fun, just tiredness and assignments and a gaping hole of procrastination *sigh*. so over uni.“
I LOVE THIS GIRL.. she is the highlight of my work and she keeps me happily insane every shift.tess darling how you make me laugh. i will happily grampa grope you any day. love.
xxx
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18th Birthday
Current mood:  thankfulwhere to start? i have had the most awesome birthday a person could ask for. from waking up on thursday i had a brilliant day..and then the night began well with vodka sunrises in irish murphys and continued on to a wild night full of techies and drinking and good times, with absolutly wonderful people and now some awesome memories.. the band singing happy birthday, my sister and nat joining the fun, crazy drunks,tequila shots and some dancing with my favorite techs. what more could i ask for? well then comes saturday.. coming home and walking in the door to a room full of people who all flew up from their different states to celebrate and surprise me on my birthday. my favorite Aunties and Godparents and cousins and closest friends.cousins i shared my birthday with when i was three years old now coming to celebrate and get drunk, My parents hiring fire twirling waiters who served us from their jazzy cocktail bar and the crazy jaimacan band, rocking into the night,.. all my dearest friends coming and singing and dancing and enjoying themselves. every person i could possibly want had come to celebrate and party with me. there is nothing more i could have asked for for my birthday. all the presents i got and the huge celebrations where amazing. i cant explain how awesome my friends and family are and i just want to thank everyone who celebrated my birthday with me. i had the best birthday a person could ask for and i have been given everything i could ever need or want.. i have an amazing life… and now.. power tools. |
Bump In
Hey Blog World,
So i have been slack and not updated for a while. I am currently on a quick break from my Bump In and i thought hey.. why not update.
Right now i am seriously so very very tired. Last night i couldn’t sleep because i was thinking about Bump In and bills and all the rest of it. I didn’t want to wake Jen and i thought if i read for a while i would get tired.. but instead i fell asleep on the couch with my book in hand and Jen woke me up and i was all confused. But then we went back to bed for a while and it was wonderful.
It is true that the honeymoon stage is over with dearest Jen. But to my complete happiness i just seem to like her more and more. We argue and whinge and nag but in that brilliant happy way of two people who are comfortable around each other. Every new thing i find out about her just makes me want to spend more time with her and i still look forward to every time she arrives at my house. Its odd because i want to spend so much time with her always, even after we have just spent like days together i still want her around which is unusual because people annoy me usually after a while and im like.. bugger off.. but its the opposite with her. She is so funny and cute and she is really so very pretty. Like seriously beautiful.
Last night we went to the movie marathon at the globe which was awesome. We watched Teen Wolf and Tank Girl which was great. It was awesome to have Jen next to me. We went to dinner at Montezumas with Jens friend Jac which was really lovely. It was made even better by the fact that i totally wanted to order chilli con carne but figured everyone would order from the mains section so i wouldnt be able to.. but then… Yay for Jac and her partner for ordering the chilli con carne as well. It was good. Even with the green shit i had to take off it. I was glad that everyone was just as into the chilli as i was.
Also I got my stitches out which was awesome. I keep having to go to the doctor and stuff but i think its getting there. This week is really busy and on Sunday i am turning 20. I have really thought about that but in a way its like… lame… i will be all old and no longer one of those young carefree teenagers. Sigh.
I am so cold. Bump In is making me cold and tired and im thinking maybe i suck at my profession and im never going to find a real job in the industry and i should just change careers and become like… something boring like a receptionist. I doubt i have any more mental skill to become anything better.
I find it awesome that Jen has quickly become such a key part in my world. I want her with me always. I like her meeting my friends and spending time with us and whether its just her and i watching telly or we are being social at a gathering of people, it is always made so much better by her prescence. I also love her cute domestic ways and how she always offers to sew things and always looks worried when im doing stupid things or talking about stupid things i have done. She is my perfect cute wife and i am so stoked she is mine and i am not letting her dump me ever. She is stuck with me until im old and die in a rocking chair.
Ok people i have to go eat some food. I am hungry.
Cheers xx
Looking Up!
Hello Blog World!
I am sooooo excited. I am home finally! I am back at my wonderful little home (that currently has a rat in it… that depresses me a lot because ew! i have to be rid of him. I am at a loss of how to do that though because how do i find him? sigh).
But in other news…. I was finally reunited with the wonderful beautiful Jen! It was pretty much the most exciting this ever. Firstly she picked me up from uni and we went home and caught up for quite some time. Then… we went to Southbank and had fun times at Batavia, one of my all time favorite places to go. Then we had dinner (i had spaghetti bolognaise, it was yum) and THEN we went and saw 17 Again. It was an awesome movie! Zac Efron is brilliant and i am a total fan of him. Contrary to popular belief he is NOT a one trick pony. He is just a such a cute dreamy eyed thing. I mean… i may be a lesbian but even i fall for the charming smile of that guy… Then Jen and I went home and i enjoyed her company all the way until she left at midday today. The world is truly back in its rightful place now and waking up next to her made the whole world perfect. She is really the cutest face to see when you open your eyes.
I ordered groceries on Coles Online and they came at like frickin 8am and gave me alllll the food i ordered. It was kind of amazing because i have so much food right now that i really love and i didnt have to go to the shops. Plus my mum paid for it on her card before i came back to Brisbane. So yay!
Also on other news i went to uni and am back on the show! I am very glad because i like this show and i have no intention of sitting around whilst everyone else is on Bump In. I got back in time for the Production Meeting and now i get to be there and teaching the sound desk and i am happy.
I have a doctors appointment on Friday morning so hopefully i can get the stitches out and then my life will be one step closer to being completly awesome. I am going to go to work next week so that i can not get fired and all that as well.
But in general… I am doing so well right now. Seriously in a happy gleeful mood. I can walk, i am having dinner tonight with beautiful Jen, im back on my show, im not fired, and i am feeling much better and not hurting so bad.
Life is good everyone. xx
Quick
Change of Plan: Not Going Away This Weekend.
I will still have internet and such. Parents realized packing and going would be too hard, with a baby and a cripple.
I am coming home on Tuesday. I cannot wait. You probably have a small idea of how excited i am about that.
Just writing to say, I am going to miss Jen even because i still wont be online much due to family fun time. But i will be thinking heaps about her and its not long now till i come home.
Beautiful Jen i miss you and i’ll be home soon and then we are going to make up for the lost two weeks and it will be awesome. Be prepared for a whole lot of kissing…amongst other things!
Must be off,
Cheers All x
Bed Bound
Hello Random Blog People.
I am highly emotional today. I am watching the music channel and my mood is changing with each song, when the sad songs come on i am pretty much ready to do some sort of dramatic suicidal motion.
What i would like to know is why do movies have to go ’start off ok, everything seems fine… traumatic disaster strikes.. then it somehow works out fine and everyone is happy’… like.. did Bambi have to lose his mum? Did Little Foot have to lose his mum in Land Before Time? Did Buzz really need to find out he was a toy and not really unique? Why do all the love stories go… ‘they meet, fall in love… sudden giant misunderstanding occurs, followed by separation… then ending happy or death in the others arms’… It happens with every movie. I want a movie that starts happy… they meet their significant other… fall in love.. get married… and die old together after a long happy life full of children that didn’t ever get sick or have drowning accidents and grandchildren they get to see as often as they want. That is what i would like to see instead.
All these songs are really depressing, even though its actually only like.. Pete Murray, Ronan Keating and Nickleback that keep appearing between the dance songs.
My role has been taken over on the show. The girl who is doing it i have no faith in and she is already on a power trip and sending out emails about her ‘promotion’ and gloating. I hope i am better by the time we start Bump In (when we go to the theatre and spend two weeks or so building, rigging, focusing and plotting the show before tech rehearsals and Opening Night) because i know she will have no idea what to do with the sound desk and i love that desk and have used it a few times and am one of the only people who know how. So i can 1. Teach her it properly and 2. Bring her down off her high horse. I may be slightly irrational because I’m cooped up and a little competitive because she annoys me but hey i have to spend all day in this stupid bed and i am emotional.
I want to see Jen. Serious pining for her right now. I want to hug her and kiss her and play with her hair and wrap my arms around her and i want to hear her laugh and i want to look at her until she turns to me and says ‘what?’ slightly apprehensively because she doesnt know i’m just so caught up in how amazing and beautiful i think she is that i don’t want to look away.
I am bored. I have no desire to read even though usually i love reading but i don’t have any interesting books. The television is boring and slowly removing any intelligence i had left. I cant go anywhere so i have no fun stories. Seriously i have never been this boring in my life. I don’t have any of my drawing pencils or anything here. I have no urge to write poetry, short stories or a novel. I do not feel the urge to knit, do origami, learn a language or practice my cursive. I don’t have any of my paints or a canvas. I would like to screen print or something but i think that would actually be too hard and i would have to find the materials as well. I can’t make jewelery, bake anything or refine my skills in cooking foreign recipes. I also cant go to the beach, or even outside because of the rain, the risk of infection and being too tired to get anywhere. I cannot learn to dance the tango, braid my hair, learn the guitar, learn the piano or play the harmonica. I am just so bored. I also do not want to play online games or research how to rebuild a car, load a gun or take apart a bomb.
All i want is to see Jen. Thats it. I have no desire for anything else.
Ok i think i have written enough. Have a good day xx
General Whinge
I want to walk. I don’t want to lie here anymore. Its frustrating and i feel useless. Yesterday was perhaps one of the worst days i’ve had in the longest time. Not only was my foot aching and more bruising becoming evident but i spent the entire day in a world of spinning and aching pain and continously throwing up. When i wasnt throwing up i was passed out in a clammy, painful sleep. It sucked. I am not in a great mood. I have been taken off my current show, which made me cry because i really loved my role and i was looking forward to it. I havent eaten anything since yesterday morning because i just cant even keep water down. I want to walk! I am so frustrated. I am not the type to spend so much time doing nothing… I am consistently busy usually. Between work and uni I usually only get Sundays off and even on those days i go to the markets and go places. I dont want to be cooped up and bound here, at the mercy of my family. I mean… i love my family and mum has been taking care of me great because she is a paramedic and everything, but i havent had to rely on someone to take care of me for years. Even when before i moved to Brisbane I took care of myself. I had two jobs and paid for school myself and i moved out at 17 and did not need anyone and i just… oh i dont know i just want to be capable again.
Ok on other note, I got the best present delivered today… It was a beautiful bunch of ‘Edible Blossoms’ all pretty and exciting looking from Jen. It made me feel so much better just to see her name on the card. I am missing that girl like you wouldn’t believe. She is just so wonderful. Even though i have been whinging consistently for days and days she is still so caring and listens and asking me if im ok and telling me i will get better. I am lucky to have this beautiful girl in my life. She really makes me feel so much better.
Well i don’t really have much else to say. My life is highly boring right now. I have watched more Foxtel in the past 5 or so days then anyone should in their entire lives, also every now and then i go and lie down in the other lounge room.. yes i am the most exciting person you’ll ever meet.
Well thats all. Sorry you had to read such a complaining, boring post.
Hello world!
Ok so my first post. Well hello. I doubt i will have any readers so i am not directing this at anyone. Maybe i’ll just type in my random thoughts. So first off… my current life…
My name is Jodie.I am at University in my 3rd year of Technical Production.I am planning on travelling to London and all over the world once i get myself organised.
I have a beautiful girlfriend named Jen and she is quickly becoming the highlight of my world. To describe how i have reached this conclusion and how i have managed to get this amazing girl to be mine i would have to explain all the mistakes and stupid things i have done and learnt from that have led me to her. And to wanting, at least for the uncertain future, to give her the world.
This blog is quickly going to become all about my GF so before i continue my gushing i am going to say what else has been happening…
Ok well about 3 days ago i got hit by a motorbike when i was crossing the road (at the lights) in the rain and then rushed to hospital in an ambulance. I am now on crutches and highly incapable of doing anything for myself besides laying in bed and feeling sore and exhausted. I am cranky and tired and fairly whingy for the moment but i think i’ll talk about all that later.
All i really want to talk about right now is my GF. She is just my most favorite person these days. And im not just being some gushy thing for no reason. I have dated a lot and had a lot of ‘experience’ in various relationships and with a lot of people. Not to say i was a ‘player’ or anything. But i just… well i have a lot of history and i have learnt from it.
This is why i think this girl is so incredible. I have encountered a lot of crap people. But her… my god this girl is the most breath of fresh air i have ever met. When i first met her i thought she must be playing hard to get… because she didnt pay me hardly any attention at all.. But that wasnt it. She just had no idea i was ‘making advances’ because she is less experienced in this type of thing and kinda oblivious to it. She is very cute in that way. That i kinda had to explain everything directly in order to get the message across that i was so interested in her.
Well anyway after following her around Sporties all night then adding her on facebook i finally started convincing her through some seriously not subtle flirting that i liked her. She agreed to meet me on Thursday night at pool comp and i was so excited. I remember walking into the room and looking around for her and seeing her in the corner of the room, sitting so beautifully, drinking some sort of classy wine. I was too unsure to go straight up to her. So i stood talking to some people for a while before finally going to talk to her. You see i thought maybe i was sposed to outwait her and wait till she came over to me but 1. she is much better at being patient then i am.. and 2. i finally realised she had no idea what the rules to this are so i would have to do it all first.
You see i was just so excited to finally be near her with her also noticing me. I wanted so badly to kiss her already and i couldnt help but look at her. Anyway.. that night passed with some hand holding and gentle touching to the point where everyone obviously knew this was the start of something and then she drove me home and i got out and couldnt help but think about her heaps.
So then she came over on Sunday and i was nervous. I wanted to kiss her and touch her and you need to know that everything about this girl appeals to me because she is my complete opposite. She is quiet and kinda shy and unsure about a lot. She stresses and is kinda dorky and likes to study and sew and read non fiction and she has these amazing big eyes and beautiful smile and i couldnt help but keep looking at her. She is never the one to make the first move but she is so giving and caring and classy. She drinks wine and eats vegetables and likes to sew things onto her clothes and loves shoes. She always has perfect nails and skin and hair and her outfit is always matching and perfect. This girl is amazing. I am none of the above. I am loud and messy and disorganised and my life is chaos. I have too much confidence and no patience.
Well i finally kissed her. I turned ‘But Im A Cheerleader’ on because its her favorite movie and i wanted the moment to be special and something she could reminsce about years from now. Kissing her was amazing. Her lips were so soft and perfect and all the things i had been kinda worried about.. like her pushing me away or freaking out… none of it happened. She looked at me and smiled and it was perfect. We kissed a lot. That night was the first step to exploring each other and when she had to leave i knew i couldnt wait to see her again.
Next time i saw her we spent 7 hours in my bed. It was amazing. Im not going to go into detail except to say that every part of her was perfect to touch, to kiss, to caress. I wanted to touch her all the time. And her reactions were wonderful. It was a perfect night.
I have seen her a fair bit since then. And every time i see her i find something more wonderful about her. I liked going to the Open Air Cinema with her and we had our first picture together. I like this girl. I find the fact that she stresses really ‘endearing’. I like listening to her talk and hearing all the intelligent things she says. She is funny and random and just gorgeous.
Most of all i like kissing her and holding her hand. I cant wait to see her again and thats mainly why im so frustrated to be stuck in bed in the hands of my family.
Now i am so tired and i have so much more to say about myself and about my life. But for tonight it is bedtime. I am sure i will blog again and explain all about me and my history and less gushing about Jen but she is all that im thinking about tonight.
So goodnight random blog world and im sorry if there are spelling errors but i havent found a spellcheck and i just cant be bothered.
Sleep time xxx
