Glommen Time
I watched a show tonight called Golden Age tonight. It was ok… very long.. it went from 7.30 till 10.15 and i was like.. oh god my ass is numb. But yeh it was a pretty good story, very physical and a tragic story but generally ok.
I spent most of my day today retyping three scripts so they all matched in format, size etc.. it was irritating.
I have nothing interest to say lately, i went with Jen and saw Yo Gabba Gabba which kinda rocked my socks. I also got her to watch Transformers which hello…awesome…
Jen is still wonderful as usual, she is so perfect to be around. We are so comfy together. I love having her around and we make our timetables fit pretty well. I get her a couple of nights a week so yay. I am currently watching wedding crashers and its such a funny movie.
I have a feeling im sposed to be busy tomorrow but i forget what i am supposed to be doing.. hmmm.. oh well..
I got new boots, they are awesome. I am still wanting a new jacket but the boots came first and the jacket will have to wait.
I am considering going to bed just because im bored.
Oh well i apologise for this post being really boring but not muxh has been happening.
Night All,
xx
Hi 5
I am currently watching Hi 5 and its pretty colourful and eye catching. Terrible songs though and they just keep replacing the members when they quit i’ve noticed. They are definitely no Wiggles.
I am on a new Production now, I will be starting Film Shoots for the third year actors next week which is ok. Its not a showrole im particulary enthusiastic about because its a film piece and i don’t know the third year actors too well plus there is sooo not going to be any crew and im going to have to beg people to work on it. Should be fine though.
I just got distracted because the girl turned the other girl into a fairy and now they are in fairy land… Awesome..
I am a touch cold. According to Jen i am a wimp when it comes to cold. So i am going to fail at living when/if i go to London.
I had a very odd sleep last night. I blame the detective book i was reading and drinking the rest of my ‘left over’ alcohols.
Did i tell everyone i got a new fish? Juniper the fighting fish. He is very lethargic and doesnt eat much so i am worried about his health. Hopefully he will hang in there. My old fish Cinnamon was much more lively and neurotic so at least he was interesting.. i keep thinking Juniper might be dead cos he hardly moves.
Anywho im gonna go put some socks on.
Talk soon all! xx
Awake again.
Ok Hey Everyone,
Long time no update. It is currently 2.51am and i am wide awake. I wish i could get this sleeping thing under control. Jen is currently in my room asleep and i am out here on the couch trying to make my brain shut off and i kept accidently waking her so i came out here. I have to go to work today so i really need all the sleep i can get.
My head is pounding, full of thoughts about bills and what the future holds and worries. I need sleep remedies, I really need to get this sorted and i don’t really want sleeping pills, not until i have tried everything else.
It’s cold and dark in this room. i think Jen might be waking up, i can hear her moving. i really want to sleep.
Any sleep suggestions?
Worn Me Down
The title says all. I am worn down today. I apologise for not updating for like over a week but eh.
I don’t like my job. I don’t like working at uni in a bakery where people i study with come in and order food off me and i feel like secretly they are thinking ‘after 3yrs of uni she is working in hospitality…not a surprise..’ and my self esteem just hits the ground whenever i see someone i know. Also i want to set every customer on fire, whether its the ones that pay for a $2 something with a credit card or the ones who want their stupid shitty sandwiches toasted and then get huffy when they have to wait. Blah.
Im watching hueys cooking show, he cooks an overabundance of food, like way too much. Its disgusting. He truly does have sausage fingers.
I got a fish. His name is Juniper and he is the coolest thing ever. Like seriously.
I bumped out the show i was on. We finished at 5am and it was pretty good but now i don’t know whats on next for me. I want to work somewhere other then Brisbane, I may be running away from knowing too many people in my industry because i feel useless and like they all think i am not good enough but eh i would love to work in a different state or country with techies other then these ones just the same.
I need some sort of boost. Like a tattoo or getting my ears pierced again or something that will make me feel cool again.
On a happy note.. Clean house.. probably cleaner kitchen then i have ever had since i moved in. Plus my bed is made.. I know what your thinking ’she let Jen wear her down’ maybe you werent thinking that but its what happened, i finally gave in and let her do the dishes and she blitzed the kitchen. I feel i did my part by taking the bins out and hanging up the bath mat.. but now i have washing on and incense burning and my house is cosy as. I came home from the shitty work shift and saw my pj shirt folded neatly on my made bed and thought… awww.. and was instantly in a better mood. She is the cutest thing ever.. Eventually i’ll give in and let her ‘tidy’ the house and i’ll come home to her using gumption on the roof. Its great that she loves cleaning cos i hate it so so so much. So bit by bit im getting used to her weird need to clean things and completely loving not having to do it myself.
I am waiting for the masterchef rerun to come on cos i missed it last night. I bought pressies for dad and blakes bday and mothers day, best thing i got was… a SKATEBOARD… thats right.. i am giving my 9yr old brother a skateboard in the hope he becomes one of those irritating label wearing hoodlums with his boxers hanging out that bums around skate parks. Fingers crossed hey?
YAY masterchef is on now. Sweet.
FYI: i love Jen, want her around always, stress when im not there to make sure she is happy/comfy/not needing anything/safe, and i could spend hours just looking at her. She is everything i have ever looked for all rolled into one fantastic looking girl. Also we have total domestic bliss. I will cook if she cleans any night. Perfection.
Ok later peeps im watching masterchef now.
xx
So i return..
‘So we move, We change by the speed of the choices that we make, And the barriers are all self made, Thats so retrograde’
We meet again Blog World…
I have been trying for some weeks now to commit to the ‘regular’ sleeping pattern of bed by midnight, up around 8am or 9am… But it only took about three days of my old cycle to kick me back into the routine of bed by 2am or 3am, up around 8am or 9am..
I used to be awful and staying up all night online every night and falling asleep around 5am and getting up at 7am.. Everyday. On the days i had to open the bakery at 5.30am (so had to be up at 4.30) i still thought 2am was an acceptable bed time and my brain wouldnt swtich off till 3am anyway. I just cannot seem to make my brain stop. Lately i have been fairly tired because its been a busy couple of days but even when i have the chance to sleep i just cant. I toss and turn and my mind is just saying ‘hello.. im awake.. lets talk.. so uh.. bet your pretty tired hey? well tough your not sleeping… just stare at the roof and listen to the mouse.. funsies…’. Its worst the nights before i have to work… Even the other night i was exhausted but when Jen fell asleep i got up and watched a movie then went to bed at like 3am or 4am..
So here i am.. ironically reading Insomnia by Stephen King which so far is just reminding me that not sleeping sucks and every now and then refreshing facebook to see whats happening. I considered a cup of tea but i cant be bothered. I am not hungry or thirsty, energized or lethargic, tired or refreshed… i am just… awake.
About a month or two ago i went to a doctor to figure out why i was so worn down.. All it took was a conversation on my lifestyle at the time and it was pretty self explanatory… It went like this… Bed by 3am, opening the bakery at 5.30am, finishing at 9am, starting uni at 9am and finishing uni at 10pm, then coming home and sitting on the computer till 2am and starting the cycle again. Add to that the fact that i was in my old habit of only eating a full meal once every three days and then on the other days replacing meal times with energy drinks or coffee… well Doctor Lady was unimpressed. She said i had to eat then she mentioned words like ‘hospital’ ‘commited’ and i realised i had to eat more. Even though i am so rarely hungry i now eat daily and i have no issue with it except its boring, it wastes money and i know full well i function without that much..
Oh well. I fell asleep on the couch for like 15minutes tonight and woke up too warm and then its like a button went off and i was wide awake. If i had milk and cream i would cook a potato bake right now for tomorrows lunch but i dont and the shops are shut. I cook very well after midnight.. some of my best meals were made and stored between midnight and 3am. I kind of miss the days i would close my eyes at 5am, open them at 7am and pour vodka into my juice (never on a day i had work but i went like 2 months over Christmas unemployed except for the odd concert or Suncorp game.. so what i got very drunk very often) and then i would spend the days online and such.
I am falling into a rut i think.Workwise i mean. I need a proper job and to be back on show full time. I need to be doing something because there is nothing worse then looking at the week and having like.. four days in a row where you are doing NOTHING.. like not a single thing at all. Just sitting around. Its not so bad lately cos i have Jen to occupy me but she has days where she has shit to do and then i go.. so what am i going to do ALL day.. and there is nothing.. God i HATE being bored or without a daily goal.
The book is currently lacking in interest, I have watched all the dvds, the telly got boring, and no one is online.. sigh.
Sorry for the mental dribble and terrible punctuation associated with this post. I would fix it up but i am not going to.
Thanks for reading
Bye Blog Land…
‘So maybe it gets quiet
And maybe it gets numb
At least then there’s still something
To share with someone’
