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Happy Ending – Mika

This is the way you left me, I’m not pretending. No hope, no love, no glory, No Happy Ending. This is the way that we love, Like it’s forever. Then live the rest of our life, But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life, Can’t get no love without sacrifice. If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well. A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell.

This is the hardest story that I’ve ever told. No hope, or love, or glory .Happy endings gone forever more I feel as if I’m wasted. And I’m wastin’ every day

This is the way you left me, I’m not pretending. No hope, no love, no glory, No Happy Ending. This is the way that we love, Like it’s forever. Then live the rest of our life, But not together.

2 o’clock in the morning, something’s on my mind. Can’t get no rest; keep walkin’ around If I pretend that nothin’ ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I’ve ever told No hope, or love, or glory Happy endings gone forever more I feel as if I’m wasted And I’m wastin’ every day

This is the way you left me, I’m not pretending. No hope, no love, no glory, No Happy Ending. This is the way that we love, Like it’s forever. Then live the rest of our life, But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love Little bit of love, little bit of love

I feel as if I’m wasted And I waste everyday This is the way you left me, I’m not pretending. No hope, no love, no glory, No Happy Ending.

This is the way that we love, Like it’s forever. To live the rest of our life, But not together.

I know i’m the one leaving but this is how it feels… Right now Jen is fast asleep in my bed and i think i might cry. I know its all my own choice but it sure as hell isn’t easy.

Goddamn it.

Ok here goes..

This weekend just past i worked at Splendour. I am now going to list the events of what happened.

I got home from Cats on Thursday night, about 11.30 and was already so tired, but had to pack for Splendour which i only finished doing at about 1.30 in the morning. I got up at 7.30 to pack the car with Jon, then went and had breakfast at uni, met up with Jon and Annie at 11.30 and we drove down to Byron. We got there in the afternoon, figured out where we were camping and went and set up. We then looked around a bit and Jon had to work at like 6pm.

It started pissing down rain when Jon had to go to work and we were cold so Annie and I confined ourselves to our tents, I read a book till about 9pm and then tried to get some sleep. It was pouring, I was freezing, The ground was hard and cold, people were yelling and fireworks going off… So barely any sleep had on Friday night.

We got up at 7am on Saturday, had nutella toast and got dressed and went to our work meeting/ debrief at 9am. Started work at 10am on the Mix Up stage, looking for fires, letting bands on and off (every time i checked their access pass they seemed so offended, like i should know who they are…i didn’t..) and telling important people and other bands they weren’t allowed into the viewing area on the stage because we could only safely have 25 or that section would fall down.. structural limits and capacites and shit. This did not make Annie or I popular with a lot of diva like artists. So we started at 10am and in the afternoon each got a short 20 minute or so break, which i used to run back to my tent and get my big warm jacket. The day continued, there was no sitting down or leaning against anything allowed because we had to look ‘professional’ and gum boots are not friends to your feet for a lot of standing. Once it got dark it was a bit more dramatic with all the calls we heard over our headsets of people passed out, overdosing in the toilets, throwing up and falling down, jumping the fences and running, stealing stuff, being crushed in our mosh pit, and generally showing off every aspect of human stupidity. My favorite for the evening though… when a guy came up the stage stairs to me and said ‘there is two people having sex out the back’… Ok so firstly i wondered how the patrons had gotten through the fence to our restricted area, and secondly.. what the hell were they doing that there for in plain site and in the area where every security and police patrol is walking through.. But anyway sure enough i looked out the back near the excess equipment and on the ground is two drunk people quite unaware everyone could see them, there were legs in the air and serious motion going on, it was terrible. So i went and got Dan our security supervisor and pretty much personal body guard and he came round, walked over and told them to get up, which they did awkwardly and he marched them back through the fence.. the classy girl picked up her undies and walked through with them in her hand, laughing and pulling her tiny skirt down. Disgusting…but it was also a little funny.

So our main band for the night was Midnight Juggernauts, then another band or two played after that, which meant we finished at about 1am that night, got back to sign off, walked back to our tent and Annie and I just crashed in our tents straight away, i slept until 7.30 in the morning without waking up once or feeling cold or uncomfortable or anything.

So Annie went to shower, and she had to wait forever because the lines were huge. I was feeling pretty grubby but due to the extreme cold, my lack of thongs and not much time to wait in a line.. Jon emptied a bottle of water into a pot, heated it up, and i used it to wash my hair behind my tent. Dirty appearance… fixed.

Ok so we started at 10am again, this time i was doing the same job except i was asked to also walk around the stage through the crowds and check people for fires, smoking in the mosh pit, people passed out against the fence etc. I continued circling all day, asking people if they needed a medic, could they stand up, had they taken anything.. all the fun questions you ask bleary eyed drunk and drugged up idiots lying on the ground. At 5pm i got 15minutes to eat and sit, which i used to eat a bag of little biscuits and drink a V, then i was back to it, going up on stage to help Annie with the 25 people limit again, walking around the crowds getting water to girls and guys on the ground, stopping any sort of ‘lets make a fire’ fun ideas anyone had in the cold.. etc. When 9pm came and Hilltop Hoods started to play i slipped back through the fence because there was no way i was going to be in the festival grounds with that huge crowd, so i went back up on stage and stood yelling to people they couldnt come in with Annie and then once the band finished i went back out and checked the new set of ‘about to pass out’ people were still breathing. By this stage my feet were actually so sore from the hard ground and lack of sitting that i was nearly having trouble walking. At 10.30pm Annie and I were allowed to walk back to Sign On. We got back to our tent at about quarter to 11 and Jon informed us we couldnt get the car out till midnight and he was going to sleep for half an hour more before we packed up and drove back. Annie and i sorted most of our stuff to the outside of our tents, i sat in mine waiting for midnight to come and chatting, because it was cold and our bodies were cooling down from lack of moving, our leg muscles were twitching and our feet were cramping. At 11.45pm i told Annie i wasnt going to sleep but i was lying down to rest my feet… I woke up 20 minutes later, Jon had got the car and we were packing.. i hadnt heard a thing cos i had just been dead to the world for that time. We packed up and drove out the gate at 1am, got back home at 3am, showered and got organised and i fell asleep after 4am. I have just woken up and my body is aching and reminding me it has eaten hardly anything, done too much standing and walking, and my feet never want to be stood on again.

All in all though.. even though it may not seem it… it was actually really quite fun because we got to be on stage, met all these bands and got to laugh and look down on all the idiots around the place. The long hours were good because we had nothing to do at our tent anyway and apart from the extreme physically exhaustion and the cold it all went quite well. Plus.. i got paid to watch and meet all those bands and when i was walking around the crowds i had friendly but giant and tough security watching  so i was never in any danger. Also i met and made friends with some cool audio guys and i had a good time.

I would never go to Splendour unless i was being paid, i certainly wouldnt pay to go there… The bands and the markets and everything are really good, there is plenty of camping ground and stuff to do.. but the crowds are too huge and there is too many stupid people doing even stupider things and anyone who could get close enough to see their favorite bands ended up getting quite crushed.. plus the cold anf rain and mud hindered everything and at night, if i wasnt a member of the event and security team, having security assistance near me and available in a second if i used my radio, then i would of worried about my safety. Luckily though there was no major drama and every time some drunk idiot guys started hassling me i was back over the barrier and in front of the stage with the guards before they could trouble me.

Ok thats all now.

The End.

Hey Everyone,

Ok so Update:

I have booked and paid for my tickets to London, I leave on the 19th of August, start working on Dirty Dancing on the 24th of August and if i dislike it and don’t get a job then i have a return ticket for the 20th of September. If i do get a job or love it then i will just change the date of that return to much later time.

Its a bittersweet time. I am so excited, like unbelievably because i have always wanted to do this and have been working towards this for so long. But it is the end of many things if i get a job there and thats going to be really tough. But i guess this is just something i have to do, it feels so necessary. I have always wanted to go and right now i am unhappy with my job situation and this is a chance of a lifetime. Working on Dirty Dancing is going to be amazing.

So i have about a week and a half with not much to do right now, then on the 20th of July i start a show at La Boite, then i go work on Splendour, then i go back to the La Boite show, then i go to the Sunshine Coast to look after Kelsey for two weeks whilst mum is away (getting paid for it woot) and then 4 days later i fly to London. Busy Busy.

Jen and I have had a long talk. Right now we are just enjoying all the time we have together. Its running out too soon. I don’t know if i will be ready when the time to say goodbye comes. But this is something i have to do alone and as much as its a sad decision and its purely based on circumstances and has nothing to do with how much i love Jen or how perfect we are together… it is something i have planned for 3 years and i just have to do it and i have to do it by myself. It isnt fair for me to be hoping i get a job and figuring out how to stay in London, with Jen waiting here to see if i come back, to organise what she wants to do around it, it’s just unfair on her. Plus i want to say goodbye in person and not over the phone if i dont come back.

Anyway thats all i have to say on that. I currently have a stomach ache, i reckon i got food poisoning at work today. I am working at Suncorp Stadium tomorrow and i think it will be so boring. But yay for more money, cos i am relying a fair bit on my parents for money for London.

Ok then,

Night All

xxx