Update
Ok it’s been awhile.. Here’s the update..
I am on the coast till tomorrow, then in about 5 days i am leaving for London..
Shit just got real.
I am suddenly quickly running out of time and i feel like i haven’t organised anything.. I mean, i have somewhere to stay for the first two weeks, i have my plane ticket and passport, some basic clothes.. i may need some more and i need some stuff like a bag to put my bathroom shit in, some new black pants, a black button up shirt, and maybe a dress… i really want a nice dress.. but other then that i think im just gonna take some clothes, some money, and see how i go 
I will hopefully get some clothes over there, go to some nice places..etc.
Right now i am really quickly realising how little time i actually have.. when i think about it i get that quiet tightening of the chest feeling you get when your are about to stress, i havent actually let myself stress out but i’m expecting one panic attack to hit in the next four days, probably when i’m packing or have to change money or something.
So basically that’s all that’s going on, i have been on the coast for two weeks looking after Kelsey, doing laundry and making dinner for the family while mum is away… I am so glad i am finished this business tomorrow…
I am having going away drinks this Sunday night, should be fun and its going to be interesting because a whole bunch of people i have never put in the same room will be coming together.. it’s either gonna get awkward or be ok.. I’m hoping for the ‘be ok’…
I havent really lost any weight, maybe a tiny bit because i havent left the house so had no opportunity to eat crap, but dad and i enjoy two or so quiet jim beam and cokes each night.. so that hasnt helped..
Ummmm what else? I still get to have my head shot taken for our end of year showcase/grad we have at the theatre… my headshot is getting taken at 10am the morning i leave for London so i am expecting either a super excited or super stressed picture to be had…
I am not sure what else to say, i am feeling ok with the packing thing, because all my stuff is still at my house but there isn’t much rubbish around and i cleared out under the bed, all my drawers, the cupboard etc.. i also removed any ‘naughty’ things i had in my possesion in case it’s family members who have to pack my furniture away when i don’t come back… yes i know it doesnt make sense to leave everything there and not pack but mum is still expecting me to return so i can’t really put all my stuff in storage without her being annoyed…
I am really looking forward to going away… It is going to be such an adventure. Ok i have nothing else to say.. i am feeling a little frazzled right now and i am sick to death of bickering kids, screaming babies, doing laundry for four people a day, cooking dinner etc… And i am just looking forward to being young again.. I am not ready to be a mum…
I am sorry that this blog is not in any order, has bad punctuation, is not really about anything… etc… but there is a screaming baby that i just cannot handle right now so i am officially over it..
London here i come..
